Roads

Don’t take them for granted, guys.

Stop for a second and think about where you live. Where you’re sitting as you read this. I can guarantee you it’s not out in a forest somewhere. Or maybe you’re on your phone while you’re hiking and I’m that special.

Either way, consider the size of where you’re sitting and what used to be there. Trees, grass, dirt… insects, small furry animals. Sad, right?

Now think about the roads surrounding you, circling all around the city. In terms of square mileage, I think it’s pretty safe to say that roads take up even more space than buildings do. At least buildings can go up.

But holy cow, dude. Roads take up so much space. Imagine a road going through a forest. Now imagine all the trees that were cleared to make that road, and all the machinery required to make that road.

They say every tree is an ecosystem. How many ecosystems were destroyed just so we could drive our cars absentmindedly to where we are going?

I’m not saying you should stop driving. But at least the next time you go out, think of all the squirrel corpses and broken birds’ eggs you’re driving over.

it’s that time of the quarter again.

It’s the beginning. It’s the resentment; the feeling that my time here is not worthwhile; the worthlessness I feel when I enter the classroom. I don’t need to be here. I don’t want to be here.

What am I even doing here?

Wasting my time, that is. I could be doing something productive. I probably wouldn’t be, but I could be.

The entire test schedule is already on the syllabus. I could just come back on those days. But ultimately I’ll be back for every class. Just because I feel bad for skipping.

I’ve never felt this way about a music class before.

This is my life.

edit: I was wrong. There’s no test schedule. great.