In

I usually like learning things about myself, but sometimes I have to face harsh realities that I don’t want to think about. This happens whenever I get out of my comfort zone.

For the last few years, I’ve taken yearly trips to New York to see the other side of my family, and I’m always exposed to bits of myself that I don’t like. Here are some examples:

  1. I’m really bad at hiding my irritation with people when I spend long periods of time with them.
  2. I subconsciously refuse to give validation to people who say things that (I suspect) are saying them for validation.
  3. I refuse to acknowledge the efforts of people when they’ve come to the wrong conclusion about something, even if I can see it took them a lot of effort to arrive there.
  4. I have a high tolerance for physical labor but an extremely low tolerance for mental labor.

Now that I’m aware of these faults of mine, there’s no logical step forward other than to work on them. I was aware of points number 1 and 4 a while ago, but just refused to admit that they were problems for me.

I should pin this post somewhere.

May

It’s getting a lot more difficult to think creatively as I get older. There isn’t much idle time for me anymore, and if I get some, I’m usually spending it consuming media in some sense.

Most of my non-idle time is spent learning about things, watching “edu-tatinment” Youtube videos, or just playing video games. I spend another huge chunk of my time doing things I’m committed to, like church. There’s a huge list of things I do in the post before this one.

So suffice it to say: I don’t know what to write here. I’m mostly writing as a formality, and I even missed the day I was supposed to post.

Sorry, April. You were kind and unkind to me.

This year has just flown by.