It’s another one of those months where I’ve been thinking about a lot, but not enough to write something in-depth. Most of them are surface-level observations and some guesses on analysis. Here are some of them.

As you get older, you become more willing to let other people down.

My guess for this is that you get more and more busy as you get older, and you realize that nobody’s going to take care of yourself and your family except for you. Therefore, you choose to prioritize those closest to you over those asking favors of you, who are further away.

The way I wrote it probably isn’t the most elegant way of doing so, but that’s certainly how I feel as a young person who relies so much on people who are older than I am.

Today’s youth are in need of validation, more than those of any previous generation.

I say this because of how much I see behavior that would warrant attention. Kids (high-school-aged) will make requests in disguise and await approval from their peers. These sentences often begin with, “I am low-key thinking about [doing]…”

I suppose this is an issue that afflicts adults as well, but kids are much more obvious about it. Today’s technology allows for everybody to be connected all the time, and its absence causes people to act needy.

The presence of strong adult figures in the lives of children is now more important than ever.

If you thought I’d stop writing about the negative effects of technology, you were dead wrong.

Everyone’s a little screwed up.

It’s impossible to raise a kid without making any mistakes. and most character flaws in children stay through adulthood.

Praise a child too little and he will have self-esteem issues.

Praise a child too much and he will become arrogant.

Discipline a child too much and he will lash out at the first smell of freedom.

Discipline a child too little and he’ll go off the rails for his whole life.

Obviously, raising children is a lot more complicated than these black-and-white statements. But I so often see kids with problems due to bad parenting, or a lack of parenting at all. It’s not my place to say anything because I’m not a parent.

I feel dirty.

That’s not all.

There’s always more to a story than you know. Things that can’t be conveyed with words: emotions, expressions, body language. Try to get as full of a picture of the story as you can before you make judgment on anything.

That said, I want to address some observations made by the older generations of today, particularly those in positions of hiring power. They say that the main reason millennials can’t keep jobs is: they’re entitled. That’s not the entire story.

There are usually a lot more factors at play, and I can’t say entitlement isn’t one of them. The onlooker might blame entitlement as the primary reason why most millennials choose to move on quickly, but I don’t. Tiny attention spans is to blame.

Think about the culture that surrounds you. Thumb-taps and your phone are the only obstacle between you and the world. Trillions of websites are at your fingertips. Tired of what you’re reading? Try something else! There’s no cost to dropping what you’re doing and just moving on.

To be honest, I haven’t even been able to keep myself from switching windows even in the middle of writing this. Twitch and YouTube have been captivating my attention lately. Twitter and Instagram may be others’ poison, and their popularity are proof of my argument.

This ailment doesn’t afflict just millennials; it affects the older generation as well. Those who were born in the 70s and older suffer from the same issues. The next generation is going to have it even worse; don’t even get me started on generation Z.

The technology revolution is upon us, and this is one of its side effects. The industrial revolution reduced our need for physical labor in order to make society thrive, while this technology revolution seems to be reducing our need for mental labor.

Time will tell us how this revolution will affect the people.

It’s July

I’d love to do a birthday post, maybe 25 things I learned while I was 25, but I can only count the things I learned in the head. There was a lot of heart learning but it’s hard to write all of them down.

Instead, this will be postlets #3 (4?). Here goes.

Here’s why you suck at driving.

I’ve figured it out: Seattle traffic is so bad because drivers are too stubborn to make traffic flow well. They think they’re driving safely or are just being legalistic. Spoiler: some of our laws have soft contradictions with each other.

I can probably start a whole blog on efficient driving. So many things are now pet peeves:

  1. Keep right except to pass: RCW 46.61.100 (I memorized that one)
  2. Zipper merge
  3. Don’t deliberately block parts of merge lanes (what’s the point? you’re just making traffic worse)
  4. Don’t change into exit lanes at the last moment if you’ve got plenty of time to do so beforehand
  5. Always let people in (or at least don’t intentionally prevent people from entering your lane)
  6. Never tailgate (with exceptions, but especially while stuck in traffic)
  7. Never brake check (no exceptions)

I miss driving when there was nobody around. Seven years ago I’d drive down I-405 on a Sunday morning at 8am and there’d be nobody. Now I just get stuck in the passing lane.

Discuss with me.

Churches can be wildly different from each other.

You never realize how different the varying denominations of church are until you start volunteering between them. On paper, it’s a no-brainer, but sometimes the differences just hit you like a truck.

More on this later, once the summer’s over. I’ve got one event left.

Constantly being aware is a curse.

Ignorance truly is bliss. Once you get past a certain point of knowledge, you can’t help but notice little things everywhere. I’ve developed my social skills to a point where I can notice when people are more awkward than I am. This number grows every month, and it’s a lot higher than I expected.

Dudes are the most awkward around pretty women (I’ve been lucky enough to spend a substantial amount of time with some attractive women). It’s awkward to watch and awkward to be around.

Self-awareness is a gift, but only up to a certain point. You don’t want to paralyze yourself by over-analyzing; you just have to know what to let go, and when to do it.

Stop advertising me Grammarly and those writing companions. I’m fine.

$5 says they’re keeping tabs on everything you write.

Philosophies of Music

I’ve been on a Jacob Collier binge lately. His music is so complex that most of it honestly goes over my head, and I’m trying desperately to understand it. How one person so young can have this much mental bandwidth is beyond me.

Inevitably, you will come across some interviews with him where he talks about music theory in depth and some of the approaches he takes when arranging or composing. One topic particularly stuck out to me, and it’s about how he thinks about what he’s doing.

To summarize, he likes to find ways to create moments of tension then release. He also likes to subvert expectations by creating tension, then going somewhere completely unexpected, then ultimately coming back home. The moments of unexpectedness can stack on top of each other, and you’ll end up somewhere crazy. But he still returns home.

There’s no one epitome I can give that would show this, but all of his music has this to some degree.

Rick Beato briefly discussed some problems with the pop music industry in some of his videos. He pointed out that there are no moments of tension and release at all in pop music, and if there are, the buildups are so short that the effect is stunted.

He compares pop songs to junk food.

These two dudes helped me understand what I like about the music I like, and why I don’t like what I don’t like. Many genres of music are cyclical, with the same four chords repeating endlessly. Simple melodies. Ideas condensed to get the job done quickly and cheaply, like a TV dinner.

I suppose comparing my own tastes to a lavish, gourmet meal would be pretentious of me, and I’d love to say that I have guilty pleasures, but I don’t really think I do. I like pop from the 80s and before, but those pleasures aren’t guilty. At least not yet.

So with these thoughts, I’m going to continue pseudo-composing / arranging things, following this formula I’ve found.

Here’s one track I really like, and it’s one huge moment of tension into one huge moment of release.

It’s about ten minutes long.

If ten minutes is too long for you, or if you’re having a hard time paying attention to the whole thing, it might just be because you’ve had too much junk food in your life. But give it a shot. It’s totally worth it.


I wish I was able to make money doing things I do on a normal basis.

This blog is one of those things. I’ve heard there’s money to be made with blogging and ads, but I can’t imagine that anyone would actually want to come here to read my musings. I’d have to turn it into something more specialized.

I wish I could just make content about everything I wanted to. I want to publish analyses of the music of the Disney Renaissance movies. It’d give me a reason to start watching Disney movies.

Maybe some videos or articles covering trends of contemporary Christian music. Things I’ve been immersed in, but and nobody to talk about it. Or so it seems.

I like thinking about and talking about music, so I guess the next few posts will be about that.